I’m back on the case with Cadillac. It’s been a long month completing just this one layer. The cutting itself doesn’t take long but the craft and the concept is where the effort lies.
It’s not good enough for me just to make art. I need to have several factors at play in order for it to be worthwhile. I need the craft and the concept as well as the personal gratification. I don’t see the point in going through the motions just for the sake of it. When I create it has to be for the right reasons.
I’ve actually made stuff before which other people have enjoyed but which I have despised because it hasn’t given me the personal challenge or fulfillment. Just because I’m good at something and I do it well doesn’t mean that I have to like it or continue to do it.
It has been this mental hurdle which has been holding me back with Cadillac. Without the spark to catch my imagination, to tickle my creative urges, then I cannot hope to achieve anything worthwhile for myself. Of course the final artwork will be done well and will tick all the right conceptual boxes but it is a personal direction and sense of achievement that has not made me want to continue throughout this month.
Part of this has been because i have been disrupted out of my own creative space. I didn’t realise how important the mojo of my studio space is until I started working at The Bagpuss Window instead. My studio space is deliberately clean, calm,and quiet. It gives me the space to meditate on what I’m creating; a vital part of bringing the personal satisfaction that I need from my artwork. Here I consider concepts and philosophies uninterrupted and I can focus on the directions I need to take with everything.
I think I’m through the worst of that mental block now. I have an idea which can carry Cadillac forward and I’m starting to consider the time I need to make it happen. After such a malaise it might be difficult to get going again at the same speed I’m used to working at but I’m prepared to give it the time and the effort which it deserves to see the job done.
I can’t see beyond this piece at the moment which also concerns me. I am usually planning the next artwork whilst completing the current one but that isn’t the case here. I’m trying not to let this panic me and I know the best course of action is certainly not inaction. I’m determined now to continue with Cadillac and consider my position on future works later next month.