I still vividly remember the creative blockage and ensuing mental panic that happened when I made this collage back in October. I am uncomfortable looking at the work because of this. I am also not sure I want to attempt making a clone of 5.1 Nauticus.
But not do so would be cowardly. It is the physical collage that displeases me? or is it the memories of past emotions that are clouding my current judgement. I have to know.
The only way to find out is to reclaim the negative feelings and own them for myself in a positive light. I owe it to my future Self to confront my past Self. If it goes badly I’ll know to let this one go.
“Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale” – Herman Melville ‘Moby Dick’